I have just returned inside from spending an hour or so outside in the yard on a beautiful evening. Together Wonderful Guy and I deadheaded (I kept a close eye on him, trust me!). I weeded some. The animals kept us company. There is no wind, the temperature is warm, but mild. The pesky mosquitoes that bothered us the last couple weeks are gone. In short, a perfect mid-summer evening.
Just what I needed to clear the head.
My head is full , you see, of work and the on-going uncertainty. Those of us who are left, and there are less daily, it seems, are wondering what the future will hold.
While I am working my program, and trying to act as if I knew today that everything was going to be okay (and I really do believe that it will be just as it needs to be), there are still feelings and some stresses that are natural in this situation. At least, I think it would be natural in a situation like this. I don't know, because I have never been in such a situation. This is an untrod path for me.
When is enough enough?
When does one cut bait (so to speak as I am not a fisherperson by trade)?
Well, not until I am paid, I guess.
Again, going back to my program, I will know what I need to do when I need to do it. For now, I know where the resume is on the hard drive, and I will work on the updating over the next week or so. Sooner, if I find myself unemployed. Later, if payroll is met (yes, we are due some funds), and the board decides on what, in my mind, at least, is the more favorable option for the future
It will be what it will be, but the unknowing is proving to be very wearing.
3 months ago